Book - Shame

Here's a little book I made about shame and what happens then. I made a cover and all as well, but here are just the pages.

Enjoy!

Berlin!!

Hi!!

A few weeks back I went on a school excursion to Berlin for five days. I had never been there before, and it was great! I definitely want to go back someday. Despite of the ugly buildings and that everything is grey, I think Berlin has something special.

Here's my drawing journal and some photo's I took, enjoy!

Admitted at ArtEZ Academy of Arts!! (and kabk as well)

Hi there everybody!

It's been a while, again, I'm sorry! I've been busy figuring out what to do.

In the meantime I had my admission at the academy in The Hague (where I studied this last year), had to do it twice, because they weren't overwhelmed the first time. After the the first try, I decided to do admission at other academies as well. I applied for Utrecht and Zwolle. After a few weeks, I found out that the academy in The Hague admitted me (I had to call them myself, because they forgot about me, but anyway). Even though I didn't really want to go there anymore, I was pleased that they thought I was good enough. I actually decided that I really wanted to go to Zwolle, for the study illustration design.

After some weeks of working really hard on the assignments for the admission in Zwolle (ArtEZ academy), the day arrived, admission day.. Once we got there, I had to make some drawings and present my work to a jury. Later that day another jury came to judge my work, but this time without my presentation. So I decided to make a presentation that wouldn't need my presence. The other applicants just dropped their work on a big pile, I organized it more by hanging the important works on the wall, and showing my sketchbooks. When the second jury was done, I went to pack my work to go home. At this moment, one of the teachers came in to whisper 'you are admitted!', but I had to keep my mouth shut. I was so happy! Me and Tom raced outside to do a little victory dance.

So now, I still have the admission in Utrecht, and if I'll get admitted there as well, I can choose. But actually is Zwolle the one I want to attend.

Here is one of the assignments I did for the admission in Zwolle. The assignment was: make a book of paintings, 5-10 pages, size 50x35 cm. The book has to have a story and you're free to choose what materials to use.

First I wrote my story, about doing admission for the first time in The Hague and was sent to the preparatory-year. At first everything went well, then I started disliking the assignments, the way the teachers behaved, the work they wanted me to make and that they wouldn't respect my point of view. Still, I persevered, even though I wasn't enjoying it that much anymore. Then there was the second admission, for Fine Arts, which I did with a lot of doubt. I had to re-do it, with even more doubt, but at this time, I had made my plans to try Zwolle for the study Illustration design. I got admitted at the kabk in The Hague, but decided to leave that academy behind, and try a new adventure at ArtEz in Zwolle. 

I re-wrote the story and came up with this one, I think the actual story still shines through.

Enjoy and be prepared for more posts!!

Two presentations

First off, these pictures above are from two presentations back, from where I just made the self portrait. I decided to put that kind of presentation back in the final assessment presentation. So these next pictures are from the final assessment where I got my final grades. Grades are 1 to 10, where 1 is the lowest and ten the highest grade.

- Creative capacity---------------------7
- Capacity of critical reflection-------6
- Capacity to grow and innovation-------6
- Organisational capacity---------------7
- Communicative capacity----------------6,5
- Environmental focus-------------------5

It also said that I have the ability, but it's not showing yet. That I'm stuck on techniques and forget about the concepts. I also have to be more open towards the teachers. (as I said in a previous post, I don't like talking about my work when I'm not proud of it, that was the problem her I think)
I understand my grades, but I'm not happy with them, I should have worked harder.
Let's say, I was glad it was over, but still I have my admission next Tuesday and I'm freaking out a bit. I thought I had it all figured out at the beginning of the year. Fine Arts: that is going to be it. But now, at the end of the year, doubts are rising. I have had a really long period of struggling. I know struggling is normal, but I had a lot of times where I just couldn't find myself in the ideas of what I was asked. I like to make clear, good images and I like to put a story behind them. It's just not in me to make a whole political statement, or really try to force my opinion on anybody.
After some talking with Tom, I came to the decision that, even though it's a bit late, that I have to find out what I really want. Maybe illustration is more my thing, but maybe there is room for what I want at the fine arts departement.

Few days later I also had a little chat with my mate Amy, she pulled me out of the hole again. Such a positive thinker. She told me that she definetely sees me at fine arts in the future. She also said that you cannot predict the future, so I should just do it and go for it. Thanks Amy!

OK guys, my admission is tomorrow, so wish me luck!!


Toodles!

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Sketches

Hi guys,

Because of my lack of internet connection, it's been a while since my last post. Sorry!

I had two presentations in the meanwhile, which went alright. My grade was a V this time, so that's good, but I'll tell you more about the presentations later, when I found the pictures back.

In the meantime I found my aunt in Schotland, who has a great coffeeshop/art-gallery called the Ava Gallery, at Hennies corner. At her Gallery she shows works of young new artists and she asked me to send over some of my work as well! This is, of course, already a dream come true and I'm very grateful for this, thank you Lesley!

In two weeks I have another assessment presentation, the final one, the important one, the big one. So I'm kind of busy at the moment. Two weeks after that presentation, there's admission-day. So I have to show all of my work again, and make sure the Academy accepts me!!!

Important weeks....

Well cheers to you all!

These next four pictures are of a life drawing session, first one minute, then three, the last one ten minutes.

These last drawings I did from a site; www.lovecastle.org, which provides you with random poses. This is a good exercise. I made these in one minute per pose.

Cheers!!!